Just the other day, I came across a quote on Facebook that hit a chord with me. "Some things are so unexpected that no one is prepared for them." Boy did Rosten hit that nail on the head!
Not so long ago, the current of my life was calmly flowing within the river I had built for it. Just as I always expected. Rising waters were all it took to breech the banks, creating a new tributary for this stream, which I certainly was not prepared for.
While I always felt this redirection was temporary, that the water would naturally make its way back home, what I didn't realize was that this new trickling creek was growing stronger as its own branch, adapting to the surrounding conditions.
Never did I think having another child would result in such a life change for me, taking me from what I knew, where I thought I thrived. Then again, never in a million years did I think anything would be wrong with one of our kids. It is a humbling experience to say the least.
As we have made our way over each obstacle in the road, my personal destination was within eyeshot. There seemed to be a clear path where I was heading back on course. Only a few unexpected turns would change all of it.
After considering every possibility, the dam in the way was just one that could not be passed.
To pause my career is necessary, the best choice for Cole. Still, making this choice has been bittersweet because of the "family" I was leaving behind. My heart broke to have to share this choice with many individuals who have shared the past twelve years of professional and personal joys and sorrows. After all, my school is one like no other, one giant family, supportive and loving beyond any regular workplace.
As difficult as this week has been, as lost as I have felt, I realized, while in a sense I was moving on, I was not leaving them behind as a part of my life. After many conversations, I knew, the bonds built in friendship would remain.
As I raft on the rapids in new company, I know the old is not far behind, still holding a place in my life, which fills my heart with love and warmth.
As I take a deep breath and move forward, to paraphrase Dr. Seuss, I will not cry because it is over, but smile because it happened. And I must say, there is a great deal within my WM chapters to smile about. <3
Liz, You brought a tear to my eye. I hope you count me as a friend who will remain in your life. Family has to come first but I will miss you down the hall. Hugs to the family and you!!!
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Linda,
Delete100%! I need to see more of all of you! You never know when I may be back...maybe as a sub when I am able? The amount I struggled with this choice was immense, and it was because of people like you, who I miss greatly. But, in the end, this is the right choice for right now. Hugs to you...no tears - I am still right here! Wish you could have coffee with Barb D. and I this week! Soon. :)